He has awaken from the nightmare

In about two weeks, It'll be a whole year since ive stepped foot on stage with my band. During the wait and the promises ive held on to , Nothings happend with my life. Still haven't finished college , Still no work. Ill be 20 soon. I wont be a kid anymore.

Still, I hold on to the dream I've had ever since i was threw myself into the scene. The dream where I can live without to beieng yelled at by some Boss I'll have to be working for. I wont even have to work in an office. The dream I've had where I'm writing music not just to let out all of these words i have to say that's been held up inside me for so long , But because there is a kid listening to the story of my life and thinking to himself, That his is'nt so bad after all. The dream I've had where I can go back to the places of the past that nearly killed me , Smile and say that I've won. The dream where when all of this is over, I'm glad that people still look up to me as bringing a change of pace to their lives and to the scene we come back to everyday for our own reasons.

It's not happening to me in the town that I love. The town where I've shown how much I can love and where I've shown how bitter I can be when you choose to just throw me away. The town where the most awesome drama stories have happend to me. Ive been through alot over there. Betrayal and Acceptance and the like. I love every day of it. Be it a good day or not, Its nice to know that when I wake up, I'll have another story to tell.

But no more. My names already been to messed up there. I've waited for something to happen but its just not happening. People move on and go farther away from where they've come from in hopes of the satisfaction that they are looking for. Move to greener grass or taller buildings. Searching and searching and searching for a place that we can call home for our hearts and where there are no days that bring nothing but gray skies.

But what if im wrong about all of this. Bah. It's a gamble that I'll have to take again. Just like I did when I first moved into the town. Besides, It's not like Im that important to the people Im leaving. I wasn't sought after when I didnt tell anyone where my new apartment was.I didnt get any calls from people looking for me. I'm not missed.

So I've made the choice. I'm moving to the city. Start over fresh. Again. Just like before. Meet new people and people who I was supposed to meet years ago. Boy. Thats alot. I'll be looking foward to it. But as always at the last moment Ill get nervous like I was back then when I had to join the spelling bee. Oh, Bad memories. Moving on.

So, Its been more than a month since I've Bogged. What has happend in that span of time?


Xed and Carlos and Jek are A-Holes.

End.

Lets keep it at that.


Well that's all I have on my mind at the moment. Just had to tell the world I'll be moving out of that town soon. So hope to see most of you soon.



~ Jay