Thursday, March 13, 2008

A Decade

Nowadays you don't find people like him.It's rare in this modern day that your not judging a person by the voice on the track or worse, that fake offstage persona of cool.That kind of person where they'll remember you if you cheer him on when he needs it , that kind of person cranking up his mic to the max drowning out everyone else around him to get that girl with that cute and revealing skirt to notice your time on the stage in hopes to get under that skirt later on, that kind of person that just doesnt follow the current trend.

He knows he's fighting an uphill battle and I can feel it. We both know he deserves it. I feel bad for breaking the promise with him that before he reaches the age of 25 he'll be where he should be. I feel helpless that because I didn't meet up to the star high standards of today.
Maybe ill try again.Maybe.But I dont even have to help him. He can make it without me. When he does, ill just catch up. then I dont know. Kick it like we used to do.

Like that time during my first year in olongapo and my first month of having a car. We went out drinking at this bar we hang out often with the older guys in the scene. Drinking I guess a little too much and about to drive then ending up taking a nap in our seats. The sun and early morning tricyles woke us up.

In that bar, me and him agreed to make a band. It was weird for me because I barely knew him at the time.What happend was I was asking for anybody to hangout but I guess nobody wanted to waste time on the new kid. Except him. Met outside the mall then he toured me around the town taking me to his favorite bar with a history close to him.Then in that night he entrusted me of bieng the frontman of the band. A few days later I really learned of the weight that was on me since hes a pretty well known guy around the scene. Its weird how he asked me to team up with him and start a new band.

For awhile it seemed strange to me why he stuck with me for that year. It made no sense to me at all and even today I don't know why he did stay. Even when there were times I was just horrible in the studio. What a crazy year that was.Of the best Ill have.

I miss that guy. I honestly do. I miss everything. I even feel honored that he wasted his time with me and continues to do so and im sorry for the wrong things ive done. Because in the end after everything that happend there, Hes still willing to waste time with me. I just hope hes doing fine where he is.

Its march 13

Happy birthday man. Your one of the best.







~Jay

2 comments:

Raph Matawaran said...

Is it March? I thought it's around November-ish :D

JayWillExplode said...

From what lulay and his sister told me, His bday is march-ish.