I had a dream where all my friends got down on their knees to the wives to be. I was there as the godfather for their children coming up and the best man for a few and just someone sometimes. With churchbells ringing in my head while the grays starting appearing on top, "when will it be my time" was playing on repeat. That question can be said 2 ways, One asking for an end the other for an end to this lonliness. If only I didn't loathe myself this much I guess.