There's this show that were gonna play at somewhere in this small town I live in. April 10 will be the day that Orion finally gets a gig happening. 28 bands lined up. People new to the scene and the veterans under one roof. Everybody's getting ready for this and you can see it if you've been passing by my house lately, where the garage is the place to practice for a few young bands.
Ive been doing this band thing since I was 15 and I have a total of 7 pics to show of it. I woke up and checked my online social things to see whats up and the thing that caught my eye were the hundreds of pictures people have of themselves playing at a show or in the practice studio. Some even have group pictures of the band that's been photoshopped to have the name on the band on the picture. They try to make all this fuss to people that they have a band yet all they do are covers of the latest trends.
I don't encourage people to take pictures of me when I'm doing something, so ugly to look at. When I sing on stage or on the floor or in the garage of someones place, I do it with all of my heart, not for the cameras, not for street cred. Sometimes not even for the audience. I have to let it out sometimes and for me its the only place where I can just let it pour. I jump and stomp the ground, I shake my head as I try to get the memories out, I claw at my chest as it burns and pangs with the thought that this could be the last time Ill be heard again. I scream and yell and I fall to the floor as my legs give in and when my knees touch the ground I remember when I begged for a little more time. Its not a pretty sight.
Its really not.
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